Goodbye 2012

I'm happy that we were able to spend another year with our ray. Tho in November we got the news of  his artery narrowing. We have yet to get the call back for his heart cath appointment, but until then ray has been good.
The happiest news of all, iv been 2012 free of pregnancy. I understand many may not understand our happiness about this, so let me clear it up. I was pregnant from 2009-2011. Yes we want more, in time so this year off was much appreciated!
2013 who knows what holds for us, but I'm determine to be healthier for myself and my children. Attending meetings on a more regular basis. I want to be more active with the kids outside of school. More crafts and lots of baking!
I'm excited to celebrate Marks and mines 3year wedding anniversary! 6 years in February we have been together! Hoping for many more years to come with him.
Looking forward to change but more so within, hoping to make better decisions for the family's better well being.
Goodbye 2012, HELLO 2013!!!

The End of a Stressful Year

I'm going to be so busy the next few days! 2013 I'm turning everything around. Going to face my anxiety and do all I can to try and get a handle on it. Going to loose these pesky 50lbs, include outside play for the kids at least once a week outside of school. Meal planning weekly instead of monthly. Getting our family studies in, and making all our meetings. I have a full plate, I let myself get over stressed and other people opinions guide my decision making with my kids. I'm not ashamed of having 4 children, and when the time is right we are going to have 1more.

Looking ahead is all I can do for rays next surgery, still haven't heard from his cardiologist on when his Heart Cath is going to be. I'm stressing over the last surgery not so much the Cath. He is doing great and I'm so blessed that we haven't had anything major happen with him. He has had considerable fatigue while walking up the stairs, thankfully iv talked to management and we can get into a downstairs unit. When I'm not sure hopefully before September, or more importantly before his surgery!

I was seriously considering homeschooling the big kids, but with a heavy heart I'm keeping them in public school due to their special needs. They have major struggles that I'm not sure I could keep up with, and I want them to have the best education possible. I love that tho they struggle they still have such a passion for learning! Wish I could get them to the zoo for a field trip day while they are on break but my van is broken AGAIN! Can't go far in fear it will stop running. Gotta love car troubles.

Resolutions/Goals, I'm trying to keep it simple but nothing about our family is simple! Lol tho mark is home off work at least 1 day a week he is normally gone 12 hours out of a day. That's a lot of responsibility on me to make sure that everything else is taken care of so he doesn't have to stress about to much! Easier said then done but I'm hoping to become more organized to help keep things run smoother over here!

To Homeschool, or Not to Homeschool

My I have so much to think about. Rays 3rd surgery will be in a year or so. All depends on his heart but between the ages of 3/4 he will have his third surgery. During this time I need to think about Ebby and Kai's school attendance.
Yes I could drop them off at school, drop Wyatt off at a friends, then get to the hospital, that would put me there around 9:30ish, I would then have to leave no later then 12pm so I could pick up Wyatt to be back at the school by 1:30 to get the big kids. That's only 2 hours with my son all day and not sitting well with me.
I have a few options that I'm struggling with, 1-homeschool. Tho I don't have a problem doing it for some reason no one thinks is should do it but a handful of people. I mentioned it at a meeting at their school and the first thing said (principal wasn't there so I'm not offset to much from the response) can they just go to extended day? Your asking me to spend money for them to stay after school on top of the rediculous parking fees that I'm going to have to pay AND the twice a week gas I will be having to buy. (we live 30miles away 60 mile round trip) 2-they can stay in school and I won't be able to see ray until 4pm. Problem with that is my friend would be not only helping my kids with their homework but her own kids. I don't want to burden her with my children. And 3- I hear there is a program that the kids would go to school once a week and all work is done at home and then turned in. I like this idea because they still go to school but gives me the flexibility of going to see ray.
I know I'm thinking ahead, my mother says I'm Overanalizing it. I'm sure she would understand if she were in my position cuz I have to think of all the kids. And unfortunately I have to think about the what ifs.....   :(
I'm leaning towards partial homeschooling, I'm confident that I can do it. It's not going to be long term unless I see a difference in the kids (for the better). They do need one on one help and I think this might do the trick.

Overanalizing? Naw I'm a Heart Mom!

Well Raiden is 2!!! My lil man has been with us two wonderful years, and on his 1yr OHS his brother Wyatt was born! I am the proud mother of not 1, not 2, but four awesome kids. But if I were to be offered a reality show it would be called The Heartly Boys. Just saying lol. You would never guess there was anything wrong with mr ray.
With my big kids in school I'm realizing how much germy crap they bring home. 3months into the school year and my house has been plagued with the common cold, the flu, and the stomach flu! I know ray can't live in a bubble, but I will do my best to keep him from getting sick with anything more sevear then a cold! I feel blessed that he has only gotten colds and nothing worse.
I'm very worried for my Honey. His stress from work is beyond normal. If he isn't stressing about getting in trouble for doing the right thing he is stressing he's getting in trouble for loosening the reigns too much. I think his stress is making him sick, he needs a break where he can de-stress. Think I'v been stressing over his job a lot too :(
We might move either out of state so i can get a job, or move back into the "ghetto" to save some money. Thinking ghetto first then when ray has his last surgery move out of state. Time will tell.
I tried once a month cooking. We need another freezer. We need a different fridge. From what we have. Apartment size fridge isn't built to hold food for a family size of 6. This is from getting two weeks worth of food and the fridge being packed.
Battled ants few weeks ago. They were coming from underneath my front door, management said there was nothing they could do till the exterminator came out 4 days later. A bit of vinegar and baking soda stopped the ants at the front door. Well the stinkers then went after my patio, mopped it with vinegar and used the baking soda vinegar paste to clog up any holes they were coming from. Thought I was good, until I went to tuck Kai into bed and coming in threw his CLOSED window a trail of ants! My honey FINALY went and bought raid. I vinigared his window and wall. Vacuumed and re-sanitized his room. I haven't seen a ant since!

What To Say

It has been a rough month. My absence is proof of this. Thank god Raiden is doing well. My father on the other hand is not. I'm racking my brain on how I can get my family up to see him. I dont think he can travel anymore. Fearing the worst and I'm honestly freaking out.
The big kids "dad" moved back out. (can you see my eyes rolling??) I'm missing a fun zoo event today cuz I ave no gas, I think it's a lame reason but it's true.
On a bright side I have been killing it in the kitchen lately! I'm very proud of this seeing how I'm not the best cook, tho this past week proved that if I'm given the time I really do know how to cook! I'm going to try freezing half a months dinners. Planning on trying that out very soon. It will help make the dinner process go so much faster with getting the kids home by 2:20/2:30 then needing their snack, homework started by 3/3:15 done by 4:30.
So much on my plate....but I love it. So glad my babies are with me. Praying my honeys job stays good to him, he works so darn hard.

School Has Finally STARTED!

Well ebony and Kai are back in school! I am trying to get back into a good schedule but that is easier said then done lol. It is so nice that both of them are on the same schedule AND their classrooms are pretty much across from each other! Kai even has ebonys first grade teacher! I do believe this is going to be a fun year!
Raiden has been doing awesome, acting like the Hartley boy that he is. We were hoping that he would be off one of his meds but the drs are keeping him on them because it's better in the long run with his 3rd surgery not too far off. I can't believe he is going to be 2!!! We are so thankfully and blessed that we Are able to have this time with him. What's even crazier is that 7 days after ray turns 2 Wyatt turns 1! Lol rays birthday falls on a Thursday and that following thirsday is Wyatt's birthday!
Waking up at 4am and being up till 8pm is hard but I get a lot done.
Looking forward to fall and winter, 105 degree weather is just to stinkin hot.

Stressed out momma

Man I have been busy! Where do i start? Raiden's medicine Delima.... June 28th I called in and ordered rays blood pressure medicine. He had 5 days left on it so I thought I was safe next day airing it. Boy was I WRONG. July 1st I called checking on the status, the recording said that the rx had expired and they were waiting to hear from the dr. "ok, call the cardi" I thought, this is no biggie. Again I was WRONG. They did send his meds out, but to the pharmacy down the street, not the specialty pharmacy that it needed to be sent to. It is now the 3rd of July and finally I get word that his meds are being processed. I'm stressing by this point cuz he just finished his bottle of meds. The 4th comes and goes and is now the 5th, 7whole days later! I call the pharmacy again trying to see if the meds were shopped. "the prescription on file is expired. Please call your dr to have it updated." WTH!?! I did that on Tuesday! It was confirmed to be there. Again I call the dr and the pharmacy. Again I'm told it processing. IT'S NOW FRIDAY!! I still don't have his meds and iv gotten two phone calls about his other medicines that I have plenty of. I'm bawling my eyes out by this point, I'm on the phone crying to the cardi office, I'm crying and bitching out the pharmacy. Saturday morning at 8:30am his medicine is finally dropped off. At 9:04am I get a phone call from the pharmacy saying his rx was on hold due to an expired prescription....what the world they just dropped it off?! That was just one week. I missed the district convention due to no money for gas. Haven't left my house but to go to target to get ray his milk.....I'm going out of my mind. Lst wednesday ray and Wyatt had a appointment with their cardi. Unbenost to us, there were o2 sensors put in the apartment. (6 months ago I asked about the, putting them in and I was told it was my responsibility.mi went out and bought a good one from Costco. See where I'm going here??!) Tuesday I decided to re arrange the apartment, well more like starting the demo process, the house was a mess Wednesday. Had I known that management was going to come in I would have just cleaned up so they could come in and be gone,mthen start rearranging things. Well I didn't know and they came into my filthy house...yes I said filthy I tore my place up. Making piles of clothes for give away donation and laundry. Friday I see we have a notice on our door, it stated due to the excessive clutter In our apartment they couldn't do their inspection. Wait what inspection!??! There WAS NO NOTICE INFORMING US ABOUT A INSPECTION. Now these people think I'm filthy and can't take care of my kids. Yes, my house was messy when they got there. No they didn't tell me they were coming and I made it worse! FYI my house is imaculate now. Not because management is coming in today, but because that was my plan the whole time! You can't renovate a house with out the demo process, I had to pull old clothes, toys, and furniture out to throw away. I re organized every bedroom, closet and dresser drawer. I did ALL THIS ALONE WITH 4 KIDS IN THE HOUSE 2 ARE UNDER THE AGE OF TWO WHOM DEMAND MY ATTENTION. I'm tiered of people thinking I'm lazy, I'm tiered of people thinking my life is easy. I put on a happy face, but I'm stressful mess on the inside. If it wasn't for mark and the handful of friends that I have I may have lost it a long long time ago. As of today I'm good tho. My house is clean, grocery shopping tonight with my honey and kids. A camping trip is planned for next week and by George I can't wait to go! I may complain about how tiered I am or how stressed out I am, but I WOULD NEVER TRADE IT. I LOVE being a heart mom, I LOVE being a MOM!

Summer Blues

Summer should be fun and exciting. This summer started off that way and now is just plain boring. Keeping raiden and Wyatt out of the heat is nice (health wise) but its boring. Being poor this time a year stinks can't travel with the kids, go to amusement parks, barely can drive down the hill to a friends house. I'm trying to make the most of it. The big kids are visiting my folks in Washington. Most people think that's giving me a break. They are sadly mistaken. It's quiet in my house and all I have time to do is feed the boys play with the boys get them to take their nap and start all over again. At least with the kids home they could play with the babies while I cleaned the kitchen. I CAN'T WAIT for them to get back!!

How Time flies!

I can't believe it's been 7 months since Wyatt came into this world, and raiden is 19 months old!! The kids are now out of school and I can work on raiden and Wyatt's nap schedule! Looking forward to this summer with the kids. Wish I could get ray and Wyatt in swim lessons, but with marks schedule that's gonna be hard. Glad ray has been doing so well. Next month is his cardiologist appointment. Praying that he gets to be taken off one of his meds. I'm so thankfully that he is as healthy as can be for his condition, I love how much energy he has. That energy also scares me tho. He loves running around with his brothers and sister. Can't wait to see what our future holds for our family :)

Toy Box Delima

Gotta love kids. Kai and I had a date night, we went to go see the Avengers. We were both soooo excited about seeing the movie. We got popcorn, gummie bears, and shared a fruit punch. Twenty minutes into the movie, my sweet boy grabbed my hand and said he was ready to go. GO?!?! We just got here! They movie just started! Sigh we got up and left. I should have known better, tho Kai loves those movies he cant stand loud noises, let alone a loud movie. Guess I got a sneak peak of the first 20 minutes and I will just have to wait for it to come out on DVD lol Raiden raiden raiden.....the toy box is for putting our toys in. Not climbing on top of and then falling backwards onto your head. Really scariest at home moment that iv ever had with him. Thank goodness he is ok and only got a slight headache. This boy never stops! Mark took him to the park with his brother and sister and I thought for sure they would be gone 1 hour but they were back home within twenty minutes lol I won't even get started about my van or "mothers day". Just can't seem to catch a break. Hope things calm down I'm tierd of being stressed out, and given a guilt trip for trying to do something fun for my family. Just because we don't have much doesNt mean we can't have fun with our kids....

Spring Break

What is wrong with me?!? It's been way to long since my last post. A week after raidens cardi appointment he had an allergic reaction to something...what I'm not sure (at that time anyways). I rushed him to the pediatrician and she didnt know either. She gave him an allergies medicine and of course they sent it to a pharmacy 30minutes away from our house when we told them to send it to the one 5minutes from our house. By the time that was found out it was to late to pic up his meds. Thank goodness by that time the swelling in his lip had gone away. 3 days later it happened agan!! This time his whole bottom lip was swollen. I gave him the allergies medicine and by the hours end it was gone.
Then it hit me. He ate gold fish crackers all 3times that the reactions had happened. Raiden is allergic to gold fish crackers. I googled it And he isn't the only one. There is MSG in them and also powdered milk. My poor son, but I'm glad I figured it out. This was 3 weeks ago..since then there has been no outbreaks and I threw out all the goldfish. Hopefully my buying organic snacks for him and the kids will work out better. Trying to eat and cook healthy snacks for myself and the kids.
Wyatt my fatty is 14lbs!! He is so big! He's 5months has said dada already and is almost sitting up by himself. These kids are just getting so big!

Thank you lord!!

At raidens last cardi appointment he was taken off his lasix. He weighed 23pounds! He is now wearing 18month cloths comfortably, and sleeping all night! He has been walking since he was 13months old and talking!
All of this is so amazing to me since his assessment with the "brain" specialist said he was going to be so behind!! I think I'm going to try and see if he might wanna try potty training! If he takes to it he will be the youngest of my kiddos to be potty trained. Whoever said that heart kids are delayed or slow is an idiot! Raiden has surpassed his older brother in many stepping stones and Kai is heart healthy!
My family is sooooo awesome!

Time Will Tell

So we had a scare with our insurance. For 9 days raiden was without his meds because of new guidelines the insurance company wants us, the dr, and pharmacy to follow. He went 9 days because the insurance company didn't like the way the cardi filled out the forms. He waited 9 days because his dosage wasn't correct when they called to verify for shipping. I was. Furious for 9 days and the insurance company never called me back to explain a darn thing to me. BUT for 9 days the pharmacy was apologetic and sympathetic. They tried to reassure me that he would be ok, that they were doing everything they could to get his meds. I appreciate them for that but for 9 stinking days I was crying at night because I could tell he was breathing differently, for 9 days I was letting him play to his hearts content worrying if I should lock him down so he doesn't work himself to hard. By day 8 I was calling all the numbers I knew for his cardi to find out why it's taking so long, by day 8 raiden had had 3 nose bleeds and i didn't know if that was cuz of not having the meds or something else.
Once he did get his meds (thanks to his awesome surgical nurse whom I will NEVER stop singing her praises) they kicked his little butt. He was so drowsy, he couldn't play the way that he had been. My happy boy for the next two days was a tiered mess, and all mark and I could do is just make him as comfortable as possible.
I'm so glad that his body got used to the meds again. He is back to his playfully self and loves us again lol I also found out not till he is 2 or 3 will he have his next surgery, so it looks like we are stuck in Sacramento for a while longer. Next year looks like we will buy a house because renting is killing us lol

The Decision was Made.....

So we decided that we are going to stay. The main reason was the kids are setteled in school, getting help in special class. Helping them both with there speach and socialization skills. I know that if we leave they wont get as much help as they are now. The school they are in now is hard and challenging. Again im glad they are there but the downside is some of the parents....so fake. Today for example its a light rain and where i was parked I knew ebony wouldnt see me, I asked one of the moms if she could let ebony know where i was cuz i was behind a fence and the mother said uh hu, then she see's her child and leaves. Now im not mad that she left, im mad cuz if she didnt want to she should have said sorry we have to leave right away...i totally would have understood and would have just waited (like i did).
They think they are so much better up here, little do they know my family has more class then they will ever have. Its sad that they look down on people that live in low income housing. They pitty and make projects out of you, and to top it off they try and make you feel like part of the group but in the end talk about you behind your back. Looking forward to when we get to move out of cali and go to wa! Yes i know there is dramma everywhere you go. No im not running away from the problems, but it would be good to get back home, be near people that i know...or knew lol havent seen anyone from wa in 9years!!
Looking forward tho to this next year hoping ebony wont get held back but its a great possibility. She has dyslexia just like her momma if not worse and she is dealing with it just like i did...poor girl i feel bad for her. It was past from my birth mother to me and now to ebony and possibly kai. Sigh the joys of knowing that you have a learning disability and that it will be passed to at least one of your children.

To Much To Do with Management Being Dumb

Sigh, the dreaded day came and went for us to re-apply/qualify for our apartment. Its nice to know that we dont have a clue whether or not we will stay or go.
Management called me on thursday mid morning to let me know that my husbands job wasnt cooperating with them to get his income/job verification. I let them know that they needed to get in contact with his corporate office to get that information. They then told me that if hubby thinks he is going to play a game with them on getting verification then we can just go ahead and give our 30 day notice! WTH!!! He told them ahead of time that his job probly wont be too cooperative and then says its his fault. When i called him i asked what was going on, and find out that the apartments are being rude to the rep that is trying to get them the info. They are making hubby look bad and i dont appreciate it. I call them back to assure them that they will get the information that they need and i get blown off the phone. SERIOUSLY?!?!?!
I am split in 2 with my feelings. On one hand i want us to stay. I dont want to take the kids out of school and if we stay til summer time i just dont want to move period. But on the other hand, i have found dozens of duplex's and homes for rent lower than what we are paying here. It would get us closer to the hospital for raiden and closer to hubbys job. I just cant believe this is why we might be moving. Cuz management doesnt like his hr department. We are awesome tenants, never had a complaint and always pay rent....maybe not on time but it always gets paid!
From the few people that iv talked to that have lived here this place is a sham...a wolf in sheep's clothing if you will. They make issues with the apartments yours not theirs. They take their time with fixing things. They make you feel dumb for asking questions. Guess out of all the places that iv had to live, being in an "upstanding" neighborhood was just a bit to much to ask for. Oh and did i mention that of all the places that iv lived ony here have i seen the police or ambulance or fire trucks here every day just about....id say 6out of 7days a week one of those three if not all at the same time are here.
Im hoping if we do have to move its waking distance to a school. So if i run out of gas i can still walk the kids to school. It would also be cool if the hospital was within that type of distance...just thinking ahead for rays next surgery. If he is there for 3 weeks i want to be there everyday and if im out of gas i cant go, if i dont have 12$ for parking i cant go...i dont want to have to worry about those two factors...i want to be able to go see my baby. I know that area isnt the best but if i can get a place near the hospital and elementary school that would be soooo awesome.
Its crazy to think all this is about to happen too. Ebony and Kai are about to be done with school, raiden just had his 1yr birthday, wyatt is 2months old.... my kids are growing and our family is getting stronger everyday threw all the trials that we have and are going threw and about to go threw. Im so glad that i have my friend Bev to help me spiritually threw this. Having my weekly bible studies has been such a help. Iv been able to go to one meeting and praying that i will be able to start going more regularly. Ebony loves going but she woke up this morning round 4am with a nasty cough and complaining of a sore throat for the past few days....looks like i will be quarantining her for the next 24 hours so that she can get better.
With all this chaos im surprised at myself when i catch myself thinking of more kids!! I dont think i would really want more in this system tho. All the hardships and trials that there are. Not to mention the risk of having another heart baby. We are by far not out of the woods with raiden, so to have another i think would be to much for me. Looking forward to the new system, and then building a large farmhouse for my huge family lol
Poor wyatt is having a hard time coping with his 2month shots. He has been spitting up a bit more than usual and just a tad on the fussy side. He got a fever just once and tylenol helped that go away. But hes not back to himself just yet. Hoping that he will feel better soon, hoping that kai and raiden dont get sick...cuz if they do then i know in a weeks time mark will get sick and then just a few days later it will be me. Time to sanitize LOL

Where has A the Laundry gone?

Iv done 9 loads of laundry, i still have 5 maybe to go. First time all day that iv gotten on the laptop. Thing scares me now. Cant wait for us to get the new ipads so that i dont have to use this broken thing again.

Happy news of the day. Raiden has officially started walking! He falls every so often but he is on the go! Has taken two naps today after running up and down the hall. He is so strong and such a trooper! Sigh, now for hubby to cam down and de-stress, tho thats easier said than done.

LOL raiden just fell and walked up to the chair and told it that it wasnt nice!! Man i love this kid!!

Its all Lost

This morning i woke up to see that our computer had locked us out. I did some research on the desktop and -found out the laptop had a virus. The only Free way to fix it was to re-boot the system. In doing so i lost all my pics of raidens birth and wyatts birth. Also lost all my pics of raidens surgeries! Im so crushed right now. But i know my mom and sister have some pics so i can get some of them back. I also lost pics of my older two kids.
The L key sticks now as well wich i dont get but i would take a sticking key over viruses on the computer.

Time to start this horrible day. Need to finish laundry and clean the kitchen. Sigh....

2 days, all stress

Yesterday wasnt all that productive. Sure my hubby was able to stay home from work, yes we ran errands. But overall nothing really got done except maybe a load of laundry. Today on the other hand!!!

First thing this morning i ask the kids if they would put their dirty clothes in the hamper. They decided that they wanted to put their dirty clothes in their closet instead and get mad at me for asking them to put it in the right spot. Take my daughter to school, and then round 9am i get the most awesome phone call. Miss thang told her teacher that she was hungry and that mommie and mark eat breakfast but dont feed her. REALLY?!?!?!?! Yes this morning i forgot breakfast, but i never let them not eat. Sigh, the things kids tell their teachers. I had to do an advance on marks account just to make sure we could go out and buy "snacks" for ebony seeing how im "forgetting" to do that too! The school that she goes to is awesome academically but it sucks when it comes to the teachers butting into families lives, especially when the family is struggling and all they do is hinder instead of help. So i bought the biggest bag of carrots so that ebony can have a healthy snack and we have a thing of oat meal so she can have breakfast.

Our rent is going up starting april 1st, so we may have to move. We want to stay but if we dont qualify for the new rent price then we are forced to move before the kids school year is over, and i flat out refuse to drive them back and forth like i did when ebony was in kindergarten.

On a happy note raiden has begun to walk...not all the time he needs to be coaxed but he is defiantly trying. Im so proud of that fat boy!!

School or no School...how embarrassed was I!!

I was so excited to get the kids ready for school this morning! I had changed raiden and wyatt, pulled out clothes for ebony and kai to wear, and had given all breakfast. All this before 7am!! I was in such a good mood, and so ready for them to go to school!
Well I get her to school by 7:45 just in time cuz class starts at 7:50...but no one was there, i mean there were cars there and grown ups but there were no kids. I finally asked a woman if there was school and she said no, and if i had checked the schools web page. Well i had just the day before and from the calendar it said that only monday was a day off school but apparently i was the only one that didnt get the memo of no school! As disappointed as i was for them not to go to school, i took advantage of our last day together and had them run errands with me :)
Our first stop was walmart...gotta love walmart! Found a awesome book for raiden for only #3.95! Im a little sore form moving the apartment around yesterday but its a good pain lol After walmart i went and got wyatt's birth certificate. I thought i was going to have to drive downtown, but found out that there was a county clerks office 15min away instead of 30min! I still wasted like half a tank of gas almost but i was able to see my friend before heading back home. In that time i had called the apartments to let them know that my washer machine was broken, 5 hours later someone finally came by to check it out. And thank goodness they were able to fix it cuz i have 6 peoples worth of laundry to do...soooo not a good thing..a grown mans two infants and then me and the kids..yea im sooo behind on laundry im almost to scared to start it!
Right now the kids are watching Kung Fu Panda 2...this is like the thousandth time that they have watched it. I like it too so that makes it nice, its annoying when they love a cartoon or show and i find it soo annoying lol They have already had their dinner now i need to worry about mark. Im sure he doesn't want to eat cheesy noodles with hot dogs LOL
Time to get the kids clothes ready for tomorrow (they actually go to school tomorrow!) start at least one load of laundry, and maybe finish cleaning the kitchen. All the kids need a bath too. Good night all :)

The Moving Game

Last night mark and i talked about how the living room needed some re-arranging. Well i got a wild hair up my butt today and re-arranged the living room. Dusted everything, vacuumed at least 5 times. I was going to clean the kitchen too after i had made the kids lunch but i fell asleep with wyatt for 2 hours!! Guess i was tired, but due to marks new rule for me that im not to drink coffee after 2pm im still tierd right now. No caffeine in my system and no soda in the house. I have cool aid but that's sooooo not the same. Im proud of what i got done but there is still soooo much more to do. If mark thinks he can come home and not like it he can move the living room back himself LOL

Mark still hasn't taken down our tree in the extra room. Yet he got onto me about not cleaning the kitchen up to his standards! Im sorry our dishwasher is a piece of crap and that it didn't get the dishes smooth lol But in the end i still have to do that too. Sigh the laundry is piling up and the management office is still closed, yes that's right so far the past 3 days 6peoples worth of laundry has been piling up! Hoping that they are open tomorrow and that they can get to it before the day is over! They have been known to wait like 3 days before  even coming over to fix anything for us. Let alone them fix it right the first time!

Now its time to think about what im going to make for dinner before mark gets home from work. Not a lot to go on but pork is on the menu. Ray loved his lunch of mac n cheese and hot dogs. I know the kids aren't hungry cuz i made so much at lunch they just finished the rest like 20 min ago. And bed time is in 2 hours so they will probly eat a apple and off to bed for them! Tomorrow they go back to school! Thank goodness!! Love the kids but love when they are in school so much better!

January 1st 2012

This is the time for better time management. Im making it a goal (not a resolution) to blog everyday, take a picture of the kids every day, and to tell my husband that i love him everyday. Another goal of mine is to be a better wife and mother. I know with 4 kids there are tons of stresses and i dont want those stresses to hurt my relationship with my husband, let alone me getting to irrateted with the kids. My favorite goal is that i will be attending mettings again. I went this morning and it was wonderful! So peacefull and the information i learned was awesome as well. My final goal is to spend the whole year to get to my ideal weight. I know its going to take time and dedication so im using the whole year to work on it.
Raiden is doing awesome! His meds are the same but he goes to the cardi every 3 months now! Im so proud of how his little body is staying strong. I am so in love with that little boy that i would just go crazy without him. He has the body of his father. He looks like a mini football player. Such a cutie pie.
Wyatt is doing well also. He is gaining weight (from what i can see) beautifully, for a breast fed baby that is. Ebony and Kai are doing great. Almost time for them to go back to school from their winter break. Going to have a fun time figuring out a way better schedule. With feeding raiden lunch and nursing wyatt while waiting for ebony and kai to get out of school i see myself having my work cut out for me!
Here is to a new year and better decisions :)