So much going on and so little time! Im glad that wyatt is almost here, but why does it seem that the closer his date gets here the busier I get! What the world?!
Have two play dates lined up with kai and ray in the next couple weeks. A birthday party next weekend :( one of the play dates is the day before the birthday....and im getting hounded to see if im going (to the bday party) #1, im due in 6-9weeks!!! Why would you expect me to go to a huge party with all three of the kids without my man to help me out??? Sure his dad is going to be there, but hes 400 somethin pounds and in no shape to help coral the kids. Yet i know at the end of the day im going to be the in-law thats not nice, that does nothing with the family....seriously they are killing me (just this particular part of the fam not everyone just one set). Maybe its not my fault for not voicing every little pain that iv had to them. Maybe im looking to deep into this and they arent trying to act that way....but i know them and i just dont want drama.
I like being a home-body and not dealing with family dramma. To me if im not there then i dont have to hear about whats going on or whos doing what or not doing what. I have so much going with ebony and school, kai and school, raiden and making sure i schedule his feeds and meds and naps, and on top of all that i NEED to remember to feed myself. I love my life, i love being a mom and making sure that everything i do is for my kids and my family... but i feel that others (family of either side) have it soooo easy when they dont have kids or have just one or two. And what pisses me off the most is that they complain about how stressful their life is, how they cant do this or that cuz they are so busy...yet iv got 3 going on 4 kids and im able to get so much done, and only complain when i have more than 4 contractions in my day and my hips literally feel like they are going to fall off my body.
Tonight i was able to make enchiladas from scratch the kids fed, pretty here soon im going to get their homework started and then all 3 of them bathed and in bed by 8/8:30. Why i still find time to do school projects and help out elsewhere and do play dates is beyond me. Today i was told by a mom (jokingly and not serious) that i was making them all look bad since i volunteer for Kai's class. Sure i dont do work at the school cuz of ray but i take stuff home occasionally and get it done from the time i drop him off to when i need to get him. Im not overachieving i feel i have a obligation to show that i too have a interest in the kids school. They do learn by example.
I know im ranting these are things that i havent had a chance to get off my chest....to those that read thank you so much for continuing to read. On another hand im looking forward to the 29th of this month, i go back for another ultrasound for wyatt to make sure that all is still well with wyatt's heart. Love LOVE Love my family :)
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