Its hard to know when to call the Cardi and when to call the Pedi. I dont like the kids pediatrition..she is sooo impersonal and just..well i guess the right word would be stuck up. I love how you feel judged when you go into a pediatritions office. Your looking for help because your child is sick and yet they say your over reacting dont worry about it..and here is your bill! I DONT call the pedi when it comes to ray. I go straight to his cardi cuz they know him and they are more compasionate to knowing that im just worried about his well being...not being over-protective!
Thats my semi rant about that, and the reason for it is cuz once again he is sick, or is having a bad allergie attack. It makes me nervous. I feel so helpless because i cant give him anything for it he has to rough it out. Fortunatly hes just got a sneeze with a very very runny nose, and thank goodness his mucus is clear.
Wyatt's arraival is fast approching which is making it harder for me to take care of the house, the kids with their homework, and keeping up with raiden and his new found freedom in crawling :) I cant wait for wyatt to be here, we have everything we need. The only thing that i would say we need is more of a want on my behalf is a basinett so that while he and i are sleeping in the guest room hes not in the bed with me but next to me. Mark doesnt see the use in it but i think it would be nice. But other than that we have everything! Im so excited and cant believe how close it is!!
I wish i could nap right now, ray woke up about every 45min last night cuz he either couldnt breath or got out of a comfortable position. Sigh im going to be way overprepared to not sleep LOL
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Achey breaky....hips??
I havent wrapped my hips in 2 days...yes totally my fault and im feeling it. Especially last night. We needed to make a run to winco so i could get my ingreediants for taco (which mark ended up making and werent as good as mine) lol but about a quarter of the way threw our trip my body was like no more...he even almost went to get me one of those drive around carts. Um no thanks. I know if a dr told me i had to then sure i would drive it but im cool with a cain or just walking very slow. Of course raiden got a kick out of mark and the kids walking (litterally) away from me and watching me try to keep up. They would get far away then let me catch up. It was evil but ray was laughing so in a way it was kind of worth it.
Saturday we have the most wonderful honor of going to the Sac Zoo!! Raidens surgens are holding some kind of event and by gosh im going to wrap my hips, pack my cain and have a fun day with the kids... iv just only realized that its been like 3 years since we have been there so this will be exciting :) Im also excited that i will get to meet some wonderfull heart moms : D The pain is going to be soo worth it, that if i go into labor iv got surgens and nurses all over the park! lol Cant wait to see his surgens and his main nurse, they are all so awesome.
Saturday we have the most wonderful honor of going to the Sac Zoo!! Raidens surgens are holding some kind of event and by gosh im going to wrap my hips, pack my cain and have a fun day with the kids... iv just only realized that its been like 3 years since we have been there so this will be exciting :) Im also excited that i will get to meet some wonderfull heart moms : D The pain is going to be soo worth it, that if i go into labor iv got surgens and nurses all over the park! lol Cant wait to see his surgens and his main nurse, they are all so awesome.
Monday, September 19, 2011
What else could i go threw right now?
Ugggh So i did some research and think that i might have Symphysis Pubi Dysfunction. "It means the ligaments that normally keep your pelvic bone aligned during pregnancy become too relaxed and stretchy. This, in turn, can make the pelvic joint — aka the symphysis pubis — unstable, causing some pretty strange sensations and sometimes pain." http://www.whattoexpect.com/pregnancy/symptoms-and-solutions/symphysis-pubic-dysfunction.aspx
I mean really cuz i dont have enough on my plate i need to worry about walking up and down my stairs slowly, using a cain to help me get around the house. I will be buying on thursday or friday a belt to help keep my hips alined. What stinks is that there really isnt anything that can be done, but have wyatt. So on top of all that i worry about with Raiden and making sure he gets his meds on time, i have to worry about if im holding him to much in the day. Oh yes im not saposed to lift anything heavy...um my 10month old is like 23 lbs...yes hes a well fed fatty LOL
Im so happy with him tho, his next drs appointment isnt till november (4 days after wyatts due date) lol Hope i can make that appointment, and if im still preggers by then heaven help me! Other than a cold related to getting 2 more teeth in he has done superb since his glenn!! I mean he acts like a normal healthy lil boy. Goofy like his dad but normal LOL I need to put some dust cloths on his tummy with the way he crawls lol he drags himself just about across the floor..if hes going to exploor he can do his share and help clean up lol
My dad is home and doing well, thats making me happy. Last night i was looking at homes to rent back up in washington and mark was ok with the move...just need the money to do it lol Found 2 homes that if we made 6thousand a month would be perfect for us! hehehe but we dont so i need to lower my standards i guess. Oh and no the rent wasnt 6thousand but the highest i saw was 3thousand. Sigh everything just has to be expensive. For now im going to be happy with my Yukon XL that mark will be gettin me in feb or march :D A vehicle with 4 doors!!! Oh how nice it will be! Im hoping that he will want to trade the van in so he can get a better car for himself but we will see.
I mean really cuz i dont have enough on my plate i need to worry about walking up and down my stairs slowly, using a cain to help me get around the house. I will be buying on thursday or friday a belt to help keep my hips alined. What stinks is that there really isnt anything that can be done, but have wyatt. So on top of all that i worry about with Raiden and making sure he gets his meds on time, i have to worry about if im holding him to much in the day. Oh yes im not saposed to lift anything heavy...um my 10month old is like 23 lbs...yes hes a well fed fatty LOL
Im so happy with him tho, his next drs appointment isnt till november (4 days after wyatts due date) lol Hope i can make that appointment, and if im still preggers by then heaven help me! Other than a cold related to getting 2 more teeth in he has done superb since his glenn!! I mean he acts like a normal healthy lil boy. Goofy like his dad but normal LOL I need to put some dust cloths on his tummy with the way he crawls lol he drags himself just about across the floor..if hes going to exploor he can do his share and help clean up lol
My dad is home and doing well, thats making me happy. Last night i was looking at homes to rent back up in washington and mark was ok with the move...just need the money to do it lol Found 2 homes that if we made 6thousand a month would be perfect for us! hehehe but we dont so i need to lower my standards i guess. Oh and no the rent wasnt 6thousand but the highest i saw was 3thousand. Sigh everything just has to be expensive. For now im going to be happy with my Yukon XL that mark will be gettin me in feb or march :D A vehicle with 4 doors!!! Oh how nice it will be! Im hoping that he will want to trade the van in so he can get a better car for himself but we will see.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
It just is...
Poor ray, he just cant catch a break...he either wants me to hold him or wants to sleep. Looks like hes just tooo awake to sleep. Poor thing he needs to take his nap, doesnt help that yesterday he got thrown off his schedule a bit due to "daddy" being home.
Last night (totally last minute) the sister in-law invites us to dinner with marks dad and brothers... Nice thought right, my question is why did they invite us last minute? If they had said something like i dunno 3 days ago we would have made sure that we had the funds to go. SO of course mark and ray went and me and the kids stayed home. But im glad i didnt go, the resturant they went to was nasty. They call themselfs a mexican resturant but to food is faaaaaar from it.
Not much really going on, looking forward to rays cake! Iceing smiles is going to help us out with it and im sooo thankful for that. Hope his party is fun for him (yes i know he will only be 1) but HE HAS BEEN WITH US FOR A YEAR!!! That means sooo much to me. I love him sooo much, and im so thankfull that hes about to make it to that 12 month mark!
Last night (totally last minute) the sister in-law invites us to dinner with marks dad and brothers... Nice thought right, my question is why did they invite us last minute? If they had said something like i dunno 3 days ago we would have made sure that we had the funds to go. SO of course mark and ray went and me and the kids stayed home. But im glad i didnt go, the resturant they went to was nasty. They call themselfs a mexican resturant but to food is faaaaaar from it.
Not much really going on, looking forward to rays cake! Iceing smiles is going to help us out with it and im sooo thankful for that. Hope his party is fun for him (yes i know he will only be 1) but HE HAS BEEN WITH US FOR A YEAR!!! That means sooo much to me. I love him sooo much, and im so thankfull that hes about to make it to that 12 month mark!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Weekend Mess
This morning is very emotional. My daughter woke up at 4am sick, and still is now. Had a dreadful time at my sister in-laws daughters birthday party yesterday. Contractions everyday, just trying to make sure i remember to get the kids homework done everyday has turned into a task for me.
Lets start with the party....
I was well not hounded but essentially hounded about if me and the kids were going to make it to the party on saturday. #1, im due in 6-8 weeks. Iv been contracting since the 18th of august. My hips hurt, which i understand is normal in pregnancy but sitting hurts, driving hurts, standing to long hurts...this isnt normal pregnancy hip pain. #2, ray and i just got over being sick. Its not fun toting a lil heart baby around right after hes been sick, i was watching everyone like a hawk making sure no one was sneezing, coughing, or any little hands (lots of kids there) were going to try and touch him. I dont think anyone realizes the extra steps that i need (or other heart moms) take to make sure he stays as healthy as possible. They see it as being over protective, obsessive, anal, crazy even. And it pisses me off that they act that way cuz if it was their child they would be the same way. Yet there i was, out in gods country (we were in the sticks people), with ray, ebony, and kai. Soon as we got up there my first question was, how high up in elevation were we?? No one told me it was UP there, i would have brought raidens tylenol. Hes never been that high up and my worry was him getting a migraine. He thankfully didnt get a migraine but he did turn a bit blue and i was livid about that. I thought that marks bro and sis-in-law were going to greet us (maybe help me unload my stroller) once we got there...nope nothing. Just strange people looking at us as we parked and the kids and his grand-ma we out the van to the shade...which left me to unloading raiden getting his stroller out, getting the blankets out, and getting my 7lb diaper bag out all alone. I know what your thinkin suck it up dont you do that alone anyways....yes i do. The difference was i was having contractions which i know people had to have noticed, it was 103 and i was panting like a shaggy dog out in the heat. No one, and i mean NO ONE offered to help in any way. Which that i can get over...no big deal cuz yes i do this everyday without help...its the fact that no one offered (within the hartley fam) that ticks me off. We got there probly round 12:45ish, by 1:45pm i look down at ray and he is beat red. I made every effot to keep him in the shade, then realize we are the only ones outside..were told to bring chairs cuz there wasnt enough seating, EVERYONE WAS IN THE HOUSE IN THE AC!!!! There were maybe 5 people of the 50 that were there (that number too i believe was exaggerated since i think there might have been only 25 there). It was just a bad day overall.
So at 3am i wake up to see ebony looking over me as i slept...i swear she is creepy!!! lol But i tell her to go back to bed...then at 4am i hear her in the bathroom throwing up....HERE WE GO, I hope that she didnt get food poisoning...but if she had kai and i would have gotten it too...we all ate the same stuff.... then again she was in and out of the house so i didnt see everything she snacked on. Kai is still sleep and i put ray in the room with mark so that i could sanitize the kids bathroom after ebony. Oy, it just never ends, and by all means im not complaining about ebony being sick...i cant stand them getting sick and me not knowing why or how they got sick. Especially since i doubt she would be feeling this way if we hadnt gone to the party...i truly believe she got sick from something she may have had there. But you just never know...so now im on OCD cleaning mode so that kai, RAIDEN, mark and myself dont get whatever it is that ebony has.
My mom sent me a text last night letting me know that my dad is doing much better. Hopefully soon he will be able to come home from the hospital. That has taken an emotion toll on me as well, but i just dont talk about it...i cant its just to hard. Of all things for my dad to have gotten on top of his Parkinson's is cancer...really like our family hasnt gone threw enough. 3 years ago my aunt died of cancer...almost a year ago raiden was born with half a heart, then the news of dad, and now me worrying over wyatt and praying that he is heart healthy.... Im spread thin and trying very hard not to loose it. My once tightly bound rope of self is starting to gray and im in great need of re-braiding, and dont know where to go to get that help. All i can do is vent here and pray for the best of my sanity. Today we also remember 9/11. Im still saddened by what happened, the families that were destroyed by such senseless acts of hate. Just so sad. Guess im going to be a emotional mess today. Hope the family can brace themselves for it lol and that ebony gets better.
Lets start with the party....
I was well not hounded but essentially hounded about if me and the kids were going to make it to the party on saturday. #1, im due in 6-8 weeks. Iv been contracting since the 18th of august. My hips hurt, which i understand is normal in pregnancy but sitting hurts, driving hurts, standing to long hurts...this isnt normal pregnancy hip pain. #2, ray and i just got over being sick. Its not fun toting a lil heart baby around right after hes been sick, i was watching everyone like a hawk making sure no one was sneezing, coughing, or any little hands (lots of kids there) were going to try and touch him. I dont think anyone realizes the extra steps that i need (or other heart moms) take to make sure he stays as healthy as possible. They see it as being over protective, obsessive, anal, crazy even. And it pisses me off that they act that way cuz if it was their child they would be the same way. Yet there i was, out in gods country (we were in the sticks people), with ray, ebony, and kai. Soon as we got up there my first question was, how high up in elevation were we?? No one told me it was UP there, i would have brought raidens tylenol. Hes never been that high up and my worry was him getting a migraine. He thankfully didnt get a migraine but he did turn a bit blue and i was livid about that. I thought that marks bro and sis-in-law were going to greet us (maybe help me unload my stroller) once we got there...nope nothing. Just strange people looking at us as we parked and the kids and his grand-ma we out the van to the shade...which left me to unloading raiden getting his stroller out, getting the blankets out, and getting my 7lb diaper bag out all alone. I know what your thinkin suck it up dont you do that alone anyways....yes i do. The difference was i was having contractions which i know people had to have noticed, it was 103 and i was panting like a shaggy dog out in the heat. No one, and i mean NO ONE offered to help in any way. Which that i can get over...no big deal cuz yes i do this everyday without help...its the fact that no one offered (within the hartley fam) that ticks me off. We got there probly round 12:45ish, by 1:45pm i look down at ray and he is beat red. I made every effot to keep him in the shade, then realize we are the only ones outside..were told to bring chairs cuz there wasnt enough seating, EVERYONE WAS IN THE HOUSE IN THE AC!!!! There were maybe 5 people of the 50 that were there (that number too i believe was exaggerated since i think there might have been only 25 there). It was just a bad day overall.
So at 3am i wake up to see ebony looking over me as i slept...i swear she is creepy!!! lol But i tell her to go back to bed...then at 4am i hear her in the bathroom throwing up....HERE WE GO, I hope that she didnt get food poisoning...but if she had kai and i would have gotten it too...we all ate the same stuff.... then again she was in and out of the house so i didnt see everything she snacked on. Kai is still sleep and i put ray in the room with mark so that i could sanitize the kids bathroom after ebony. Oy, it just never ends, and by all means im not complaining about ebony being sick...i cant stand them getting sick and me not knowing why or how they got sick. Especially since i doubt she would be feeling this way if we hadnt gone to the party...i truly believe she got sick from something she may have had there. But you just never know...so now im on OCD cleaning mode so that kai, RAIDEN, mark and myself dont get whatever it is that ebony has.
My mom sent me a text last night letting me know that my dad is doing much better. Hopefully soon he will be able to come home from the hospital. That has taken an emotion toll on me as well, but i just dont talk about it...i cant its just to hard. Of all things for my dad to have gotten on top of his Parkinson's is cancer...really like our family hasnt gone threw enough. 3 years ago my aunt died of cancer...almost a year ago raiden was born with half a heart, then the news of dad, and now me worrying over wyatt and praying that he is heart healthy.... Im spread thin and trying very hard not to loose it. My once tightly bound rope of self is starting to gray and im in great need of re-braiding, and dont know where to go to get that help. All i can do is vent here and pray for the best of my sanity. Today we also remember 9/11. Im still saddened by what happened, the families that were destroyed by such senseless acts of hate. Just so sad. Guess im going to be a emotional mess today. Hope the family can brace themselves for it lol and that ebony gets better.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
6-9 weeks and im stressing out!!
So much going on and so little time! Im glad that wyatt is almost here, but why does it seem that the closer his date gets here the busier I get! What the world?!
Have two play dates lined up with kai and ray in the next couple weeks. A birthday party next weekend :( one of the play dates is the day before the birthday....and im getting hounded to see if im going (to the bday party) #1, im due in 6-9weeks!!! Why would you expect me to go to a huge party with all three of the kids without my man to help me out??? Sure his dad is going to be there, but hes 400 somethin pounds and in no shape to help coral the kids. Yet i know at the end of the day im going to be the in-law thats not nice, that does nothing with the family....seriously they are killing me (just this particular part of the fam not everyone just one set). Maybe its not my fault for not voicing every little pain that iv had to them. Maybe im looking to deep into this and they arent trying to act that way....but i know them and i just dont want drama.
I like being a home-body and not dealing with family dramma. To me if im not there then i dont have to hear about whats going on or whos doing what or not doing what. I have so much going with ebony and school, kai and school, raiden and making sure i schedule his feeds and meds and naps, and on top of all that i NEED to remember to feed myself. I love my life, i love being a mom and making sure that everything i do is for my kids and my family... but i feel that others (family of either side) have it soooo easy when they dont have kids or have just one or two. And what pisses me off the most is that they complain about how stressful their life is, how they cant do this or that cuz they are so busy...yet iv got 3 going on 4 kids and im able to get so much done, and only complain when i have more than 4 contractions in my day and my hips literally feel like they are going to fall off my body.
Tonight i was able to make enchiladas from scratch the kids fed, pretty here soon im going to get their homework started and then all 3 of them bathed and in bed by 8/8:30. Why i still find time to do school projects and help out elsewhere and do play dates is beyond me. Today i was told by a mom (jokingly and not serious) that i was making them all look bad since i volunteer for Kai's class. Sure i dont do work at the school cuz of ray but i take stuff home occasionally and get it done from the time i drop him off to when i need to get him. Im not overachieving i feel i have a obligation to show that i too have a interest in the kids school. They do learn by example.
I know im ranting these are things that i havent had a chance to get off my chest....to those that read thank you so much for continuing to read. On another hand im looking forward to the 29th of this month, i go back for another ultrasound for wyatt to make sure that all is still well with wyatt's heart. Love LOVE Love my family :)
Have two play dates lined up with kai and ray in the next couple weeks. A birthday party next weekend :( one of the play dates is the day before the birthday....and im getting hounded to see if im going (to the bday party) #1, im due in 6-9weeks!!! Why would you expect me to go to a huge party with all three of the kids without my man to help me out??? Sure his dad is going to be there, but hes 400 somethin pounds and in no shape to help coral the kids. Yet i know at the end of the day im going to be the in-law thats not nice, that does nothing with the family....seriously they are killing me (just this particular part of the fam not everyone just one set). Maybe its not my fault for not voicing every little pain that iv had to them. Maybe im looking to deep into this and they arent trying to act that way....but i know them and i just dont want drama.
I like being a home-body and not dealing with family dramma. To me if im not there then i dont have to hear about whats going on or whos doing what or not doing what. I have so much going with ebony and school, kai and school, raiden and making sure i schedule his feeds and meds and naps, and on top of all that i NEED to remember to feed myself. I love my life, i love being a mom and making sure that everything i do is for my kids and my family... but i feel that others (family of either side) have it soooo easy when they dont have kids or have just one or two. And what pisses me off the most is that they complain about how stressful their life is, how they cant do this or that cuz they are so busy...yet iv got 3 going on 4 kids and im able to get so much done, and only complain when i have more than 4 contractions in my day and my hips literally feel like they are going to fall off my body.
Tonight i was able to make enchiladas from scratch the kids fed, pretty here soon im going to get their homework started and then all 3 of them bathed and in bed by 8/8:30. Why i still find time to do school projects and help out elsewhere and do play dates is beyond me. Today i was told by a mom (jokingly and not serious) that i was making them all look bad since i volunteer for Kai's class. Sure i dont do work at the school cuz of ray but i take stuff home occasionally and get it done from the time i drop him off to when i need to get him. Im not overachieving i feel i have a obligation to show that i too have a interest in the kids school. They do learn by example.
I know im ranting these are things that i havent had a chance to get off my chest....to those that read thank you so much for continuing to read. On another hand im looking forward to the 29th of this month, i go back for another ultrasound for wyatt to make sure that all is still well with wyatt's heart. Love LOVE Love my family :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
Hip Pains
Being sick stinks. Being sick while pregnant is even worse. Feel bad that i had to keep the kids in from school cuz i feel soo bad. Yesterday my hips hurt so bad that it was painful to walk, sit, drive....even laying down hurt. I was able to talk with my dr and even he doesnt know why my hips hurt. Baby is good, nothing wrong with him...so i guess its my bodys way of saying stop. My hips still hurt today but not as bad as yesterday, tho if i move the wrong way i feel like i might fall over. Plus i got a cold or something..so i feel misserable. Sneezing hurts, coughing hurts....im so done with being pregnant. Cant wait for Wyatt to get here and i can have my body back.
I know that having two infants will be tough but it would be easier to deal with all the kids while my body is kinda back to normal. Slept from 6pm till 4am this morning. I feel i could still sleep right now :(
I know that having two infants will be tough but it would be easier to deal with all the kids while my body is kinda back to normal. Slept from 6pm till 4am this morning. I feel i could still sleep right now :(
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