I am retaining to many emotions right now and dont have a good outlet for them at all. Not sure if i will be able to keep up my happy face for long. Might be time to crawl in my hole and not come out for a few...maybe till after wyatts born. I told mark last night that im praying so hard that there is nothing wrong with him, i feel that i cant take anymore stress right now. Feel like just one more thing will make me break down. I know he feels helpless and he tries to help me out as much as he can, but hes a man and with how much he works he can only do so much.
The kids are doing good in school. More so kai. Im sooo proud of him, he sits in the front of class and listens to his teacher. Then there is ebony lol, she was moved to the front of class becuase she couldnt focus while in the back. Im having a hard time with her additude and am ready to beat it out of her LOL. She used to be my easy kid...now she has my additude that i had back when i was in middle school! And raiden....raiden raiden raiden...please child let me stand up and walk across the room without you screaming and hollerin at me cuz i want to go potty, clean the kitchen, or heaven forbid to fix my pants just to sit back down. I know he was going to go threw seperation anxioty but good lord its ten fold right now.
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