Its 4am on a sunday. I woke up at 3am. Dont think that my hips like my laying down anymore :( I need to clean the house marks dad, and grandma are coming up to say happy birthday to him...he didnt get to do anything last week cuz he had to work. I felt bad but seeing how i just started the whole "celebrating birthday" thing like 5 years ago it was that big a deal to me...that and iv only ever had 1or2 parties anyways.
Yesterday i ordered marks cake, a chocolate cake with raspberry filling. And so that hes kinda surprised white butter cream on the outside....again so hes surprised. Looking forward to the cake! lol And food, just dont know what food im going to serve yet hahaha
But here I am before i clean, need to wake up a bit first. One cup of coffee down and a whole house to clean LOL Raiden slept basically all night, hes still in bed. I closed the door so that if he wakes up mark gets to deal with him LOL I do have the monitor on so if it sounds like mark isnt going to wake up i can go in there! haha
What i feel is funny is that i have all this time, well just a few hours, but iv got the tv on and theres nothing to watch but cartoons :( what have i turned into LOL Id watch true blood but im worried that one of the kids would walk in on it while im cleaning....maybe a music channel..... we shall see :D
OFF to cleaning!!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Just Stressed
I am retaining to many emotions right now and dont have a good outlet for them at all. Not sure if i will be able to keep up my happy face for long. Might be time to crawl in my hole and not come out for a few...maybe till after wyatts born. I told mark last night that im praying so hard that there is nothing wrong with him, i feel that i cant take anymore stress right now. Feel like just one more thing will make me break down. I know he feels helpless and he tries to help me out as much as he can, but hes a man and with how much he works he can only do so much.
The kids are doing good in school. More so kai. Im sooo proud of him, he sits in the front of class and listens to his teacher. Then there is ebony lol, she was moved to the front of class becuase she couldnt focus while in the back. Im having a hard time with her additude and am ready to beat it out of her LOL. She used to be my easy kid...now she has my additude that i had back when i was in middle school! And raiden....raiden raiden raiden...please child let me stand up and walk across the room without you screaming and hollerin at me cuz i want to go potty, clean the kitchen, or heaven forbid to fix my pants just to sit back down. I know he was going to go threw seperation anxioty but good lord its ten fold right now.
The kids are doing good in school. More so kai. Im sooo proud of him, he sits in the front of class and listens to his teacher. Then there is ebony lol, she was moved to the front of class becuase she couldnt focus while in the back. Im having a hard time with her additude and am ready to beat it out of her LOL. She used to be my easy kid...now she has my additude that i had back when i was in middle school! And raiden....raiden raiden raiden...please child let me stand up and walk across the room without you screaming and hollerin at me cuz i want to go potty, clean the kitchen, or heaven forbid to fix my pants just to sit back down. I know he was going to go threw seperation anxioty but good lord its ten fold right now.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Overdoing it, and still not enough!
I am having a blast with the kids going to school! And im soooo glad that they are loving being in school! Yesterday i got the wonderfull awakening of my husband being upset that our account was overdrawn. I understand the frustration, but seriously pissy over 6$. Anyways (so making this a long story short) Because of the way he left home, I became very upset and cleaned like a mad woman...or a pregnant mad woman LOL Moved my room around, have ebonys room to do. Made a awesome salmon dinner last night for the family, and when mark got home he was perfectly fine. I seriously hate men!! lol How do you make me feel like crap, and i feel this way all day, and your over it in like a hour and come home like nothing ever happend. I swear men you need a wake up call. If you have a hormonal pregnant wife/girlfriend/or whatever- you dont get in a argument or just a more heated talk than normal, dont leave letting us think your mad alllllll day. Give us a call so we know things are cool, or a text that implies it (cuz we all know how hard it is to read text sometimes).
So this morning im sore allll over but glad i got what i was able to done yesterday. I still have a lot to do seeing how i found 4 more boxes in the back closet full of clothes. Im not just going to put them away they smell like box! lol I was able to get 6 or 8 loads done yesterday. We will see what i get done today think i might make this a lazy day LOL
So this morning im sore allll over but glad i got what i was able to done yesterday. I still have a lot to do seeing how i found 4 more boxes in the back closet full of clothes. Im not just going to put them away they smell like box! lol I was able to get 6 or 8 loads done yesterday. We will see what i get done today think i might make this a lazy day LOL
Sunday, August 14, 2011
I'm tryin to help my hubby out...
http://www.uhaul.com/UBox/
Its funny im his personal assistant right now! Yet again get paid nothing LOL But if i can help him keep his job then im going to do all that i can to help him with keeping it!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Wow the weeks is almost over
My babies...wait im sorry. My Daughter and Son (lol) are enjoying their first week of school! They both like their classes and teachers. Guess the only thing im worried about with Kai is that he may not be making friends..i know it will just take some time. And honestly i kinda hope that he doesnt..if the kids act anything like their moms (and i know this is judgmental) then i may not want him hanging out with them.
Reason i say this is because...living in the Hills has its disadvantages..the people up here (more so the women) dress to the 9's just to take their kids to school, they also flaunt their expensive jewlery and sunglasses and cars. And here i am in my 10$ tank from target driving my astro van. Im sooo cool with not befriending any of the parents...(wispering) "I think one of the moms wants to make me her project." Frankly im scared, but there is a light well a dim light at the end of the tunnel...i saw a ghetto woman picking up her 1st grader!! lol I was so excited that I had to text my mom and sister to say someone looked more ghetto than i did!! hahahaha i know im bad.
Im so proud of myself that i have been able to wake up for the past 3 days between 4am and 5:15am, this morning tho blessed mark woke me up lol...and here i am updating my blog at 9:45pm like a dummy lol still have one more morning of earlyness. Bought the kids some special treats to go in their lunches. Cant wait for them to get them. Ok, im off for today, more to update later :)
Reason i say this is because...living in the Hills has its disadvantages..the people up here (more so the women) dress to the 9's just to take their kids to school, they also flaunt their expensive jewlery and sunglasses and cars. And here i am in my 10$ tank from target driving my astro van. Im sooo cool with not befriending any of the parents...(wispering) "I think one of the moms wants to make me her project." Frankly im scared, but there is a light well a dim light at the end of the tunnel...i saw a ghetto woman picking up her 1st grader!! lol I was so excited that I had to text my mom and sister to say someone looked more ghetto than i did!! hahahaha i know im bad.
Im so proud of myself that i have been able to wake up for the past 3 days between 4am and 5:15am, this morning tho blessed mark woke me up lol...and here i am updating my blog at 9:45pm like a dummy lol still have one more morning of earlyness. Bought the kids some special treats to go in their lunches. Cant wait for them to get them. Ok, im off for today, more to update later :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
The Day Before School
My word! Has the time really come?! My only daughter is going into 1st grade!!! My wonderful (yet dorky) son is going into Kindergarten, his first year in elementary school!! Where did the time go? It was just yesterday that i was pregnant with them, and now they are officially enrolled in school!!! Looking forward to taking tons of pictures of them in their school outfits, new backpacks, and smiles on their faces!
So as of right now I'm enjoying my cup of coffee, watching Golden Girls, and enjoying the peace in the house. In 10-20min I'm going to make oatmeal for the kids, wake them up and have them eat... i was supposed to have this schedule down by now. To bad baby Wyatt had other plans with my body so iv been trying to sleep in as much as i could! Wonder who's bright idea it was to have the whole school start on a early day...yes that's right a early day. School starts at 7:50 for ebbs and 10:25 for Kai, and they both get out at 1:10pm..now here is my issue.. I have to pick Kai up at his classroom door, and i have to get ebony..cant be in two places at the same time! Sigh going to take them by the school today hopefully i can get ebony to remember where her brothers room is so on Wednesdays she meets me by the kindergartners room.
Sigh, I'm such a happy momma right now. So proud of my kiddos, all three of them :)
So as of right now I'm enjoying my cup of coffee, watching Golden Girls, and enjoying the peace in the house. In 10-20min I'm going to make oatmeal for the kids, wake them up and have them eat... i was supposed to have this schedule down by now. To bad baby Wyatt had other plans with my body so iv been trying to sleep in as much as i could! Wonder who's bright idea it was to have the whole school start on a early day...yes that's right a early day. School starts at 7:50 for ebbs and 10:25 for Kai, and they both get out at 1:10pm..now here is my issue.. I have to pick Kai up at his classroom door, and i have to get ebony..cant be in two places at the same time! Sigh going to take them by the school today hopefully i can get ebony to remember where her brothers room is so on Wednesdays she meets me by the kindergartners room.
Sigh, I'm such a happy momma right now. So proud of my kiddos, all three of them :)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Developmental Analyasis
Wednesday morning mark and i (yes MARK and i!!!!) went to raidens developmental appointment. All CHD babies get refered to check how they are developing. Because of the surgeries there are high chances that their development would be slowed. I understand why we needed to go and was happy to go, any help for ray is a blessing.
Well we get there and he knew right away it was another Dr office! lol started crying soon as they wanted to weigh him (my fat 18lb baby!!) We get into our room with the one way mirror which at first didnt bother me, but as they went on it bugged the crap out of me! There were 2 drs and 4 med students back there evaluating him/and more importantly us!
The first dr we spoke with was nice, just getting general information on how he interacts at home, his schedule with meds/feeds/sleeping. All things i expected to happen at the appointment. Then came in the other woman. She was nice the whole time (think thats what bugged me) but in my house when we want something from the kids we ask "can i have that please" we say it to ray as well....this chick was all "gimme that, give it to me" i looked at her like she was crazy. Ray didnt hand it to her either, soon as mark asked him "can i have that please" he handed it to him and let go. I rolled my eyes at her (she was writing something down) so she didnt see but im sure the drs behind the mirror did LOL
She then handed him a block the size of his hand and wanted him to stack them!! Really! The size of his hand, i can see a block 2x's that size him stacking but not something that can fit in his mouth...and that bothered me that she handed him somethin so small!! But again i held my tonge. She even gave him a crayon and pice of paper...now, im sure there are some 9month olds that are extreamly advanced and this would be no biggie for them, but Ray has a older sister and brother who leave crayons on the floor a lot...i dont let him touch them due to him choking on them eating them exct.. so again eyes rolled lol
Finally when the last Dr came in she let us know that for his age that he is doing great and doesnt need any extra assistance. Sure he isnt crawling, but his leg strength is point on he can stand as long as he is assisted and when he is on his tummy he puts all his weight to his butt and legs just wont go anywhere lol
So to me overall it was a great appointment. He doesnt have to go back till right before his 3rd surgery and then after the surgery!
Im so proud of him, and myself... i feel bad that i dont have enough energy to play with him the way other moms can (if it were their only child). But when i look at the larger picture, I am able to take care of every need he has, im able to take care of ebony (which is another big job lol) and kai! And to remember to eat for myself and stay hydrated. I know mark wishes i felt better so that more around the house got done but i know overall hes proud of me too!
Motherhood is hard, but im sooooooo glad that i am a mom. If it was just me and mark no kids i think my life would be sooo boring, the kids have brought us closer together. Im so glad that i found mark, our relationship is wonderfull...we know what the other is thinking, the kids make us stronger especially raiden!
Well we get there and he knew right away it was another Dr office! lol started crying soon as they wanted to weigh him (my fat 18lb baby!!) We get into our room with the one way mirror which at first didnt bother me, but as they went on it bugged the crap out of me! There were 2 drs and 4 med students back there evaluating him/and more importantly us!
The first dr we spoke with was nice, just getting general information on how he interacts at home, his schedule with meds/feeds/sleeping. All things i expected to happen at the appointment. Then came in the other woman. She was nice the whole time (think thats what bugged me) but in my house when we want something from the kids we ask "can i have that please" we say it to ray as well....this chick was all "gimme that, give it to me" i looked at her like she was crazy. Ray didnt hand it to her either, soon as mark asked him "can i have that please" he handed it to him and let go. I rolled my eyes at her (she was writing something down) so she didnt see but im sure the drs behind the mirror did LOL
She then handed him a block the size of his hand and wanted him to stack them!! Really! The size of his hand, i can see a block 2x's that size him stacking but not something that can fit in his mouth...and that bothered me that she handed him somethin so small!! But again i held my tonge. She even gave him a crayon and pice of paper...now, im sure there are some 9month olds that are extreamly advanced and this would be no biggie for them, but Ray has a older sister and brother who leave crayons on the floor a lot...i dont let him touch them due to him choking on them eating them exct.. so again eyes rolled lol
Finally when the last Dr came in she let us know that for his age that he is doing great and doesnt need any extra assistance. Sure he isnt crawling, but his leg strength is point on he can stand as long as he is assisted and when he is on his tummy he puts all his weight to his butt and legs just wont go anywhere lol
So to me overall it was a great appointment. He doesnt have to go back till right before his 3rd surgery and then after the surgery!
Im so proud of him, and myself... i feel bad that i dont have enough energy to play with him the way other moms can (if it were their only child). But when i look at the larger picture, I am able to take care of every need he has, im able to take care of ebony (which is another big job lol) and kai! And to remember to eat for myself and stay hydrated. I know mark wishes i felt better so that more around the house got done but i know overall hes proud of me too!
Motherhood is hard, but im sooooooo glad that i am a mom. If it was just me and mark no kids i think my life would be sooo boring, the kids have brought us closer together. Im so glad that i found mark, our relationship is wonderfull...we know what the other is thinking, the kids make us stronger especially raiden!
Monday, August 1, 2011
6 weeks has flown by
Cant believe that just 6 weeks ago raiden had his second open heart surgery! Well today 6 weeks later i get to finally hold him under the arms LOL i cant believe how incredibly good he is doing. Our family is growing so fast, need to better budget our meals, raiden is going to be eating table food soon, the baby will be here in 2-3 short months. Looking forward to all that is ahead but budgeting for everything is getting hard LOL
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