Resolutions, no I'm not doing resolutions. I am however going to be healthier for my kids, I'm going to teach them to be healthy too. I'm going to do a family project with the kids once a month. I'm going to be a better mom, more attentive to their needs, more organized.
I must learn to wrangle my anxioty, people probly think I can't handle the kids. It's the world I can't handle, I can't stand leaving the house with all the kids alone. Not because I'm ashamed of my kids but of the fear that something might happen. Yes I know that anything can happen at anytime, but I'm learning to deal.
Anxioty is not fun, I over think everything, and when it comes to ray I'm crying once a week because I'm looking at old pictures of him and thinking of his upcoming surgery, I have to stop doing that. I'm trying to live in the moment. I'm loving every minute that I have with my kids, and with my husband.
So far iv gotten Wyatt to nurse at night only, and he is down to twice a night, very excited about that. Ray sleeps all night in his toddler bed, yes in our room but in HIS bed!!
Trying to stay strong for my dad, this last trip they were down really got to me. He is fading fast. I HATE that he has not only parkensins but also cancer. WHY did HE have to get sick? It runs in his family, but still. This past week the big kids stayed with them in the hotel. I'm glad that they know him and love him the way that they do. I hope that I'm strong enough to help them threw the rough times ahead.
2013 please be kind...
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