9 months old

I cant believe that 9months ago i was told that my son may not survive life. That my precious baby boy has less than 50/50 chances at life. And yet here we are 9 months later and 2 open heart surgeries later and here sleeping next to me is my raiden!! I am so thankful for all that god has given me, so happy that i was given such a wonderful gift. Thanks to raiden my life has been put back into perspective, things that i thought were important, arent anymore. Making sure that my kids get the best out of life and live their lives as happy as i can make them is all that matters to me now. I need to do better and letting them know about Jehovah God, letting them know that its threw him that all is possible, like their little brother still being here with us today.
Sitting here now just typing that makes me want to cry because sometimes i dont feel worthy of such a great responsibility :) but i know that ray, ebony, kai, and even wyatt were given to me for a reason. Im sooo thankfull for that. They are the reason i live and breath.

Its only been like what a month! LOL

Its been so long since iv been able to get onto my account! The laptop has been down, and i couldn't remember my id, password from the main computer! Sigh...all is good tho! Im so proud of us. Raiden has been doing soooooooooo good. Since his surgery he has done nothing but get better and better! He really has shown his personality since the surgery as well, and even his apatite has increased! Before he was eating maybe 2oz of food 3x's a day. Now he is eating 4oz of food 3xs a day with snacks!!! This kid is a total porker! But i love it! hes in the 50% for his age in height, but a lil under in weight but still average for his age!!! Im sooo proud of him! I know hes behind tho cuz he still cant sit up by himself but we are working on that.
The kids start school in just 4 short weeks!! I have to get them both backpacks and lunch boxes! School supplies and get a lunch plan ready...if i dont have a plan i dont know how im going to keep things organized once school starts! Now that they are starting school i cant believe that soon the baby will be born! I have to get our schedule together, i have to get this house more together! Everything has to be as close to perfect as possible so that when baby gets here there wont be to many surprises.