10:45am- Raiden is going to be goin in for surgery in a few hours! (at 9am we found out that im having another boy!! Due date confirmed again for Nov 5th!)
12:30pm- We walked Raiden w/dad (marks dad) to the OR. It wasnt as bas as i thought it was going to be. He was smiling at the drs. We left while still all smiles so that he wouldnt fuss. Im praying so hard that all is going well down there. Hes on the 3rd floor threw a set of doors to the left...i memorized how to get down there even tho we waited in the picu waiting room :)
Not sure the time, but there is an older gentelman sitting across from us who is snoring really loud...iv complained about family members in the past that were loud, but this guy takes the cake on noise level!! lol
2:15pm- Mark and i are passin the time by pickin out baby names. As o f 1:45 they hadnt started the surgery yet. But barb was on her way down to get info on how it was going. Once again i find myself in a position where im givinng my most heart felt prayers ever. Prayers that bring me to tears, using words i never thought i would have to. Raiden has helped me grow up so much more than i thought i could. He is also showing me strength, when i didnt think i had it.
2:47pm- waiting sucks......Cant really go anywhere. Cant wait in his room. Obviously cant spend the night...such a helpless feeling. At least i have my mark here with me. He is keeping me sain and level (tho he doesnt know it). Looking at his pic (raidens) makes me smile, used to make me want to cry, but he is such a stong boy. Smiles 98% of the walk from his room to the OR :)
3:15pm- Still waiting. Hoping we didnt miss barb, but i believe she would have called us.
4:25pm- Barb saw us but she hadnt been down to the OR quite yet. BUT she did call and so far all is going well. Still praying all goes well and hone in 8 days. I miss my son :( But knowing he has so many fans, and cheerleaders amkes my heart swell up with hope and apreciation for all those going threw this journey with mark and i. Dont think they started the surgery till 2:30, so thats probly making this waiting game that much longer. The waiting area is full of diverse families all with diffrent stroyies. One heart family had their son go threw a heart cath last week. He went home today. Im starting to understand the pain it feels to be jelous of watching families with their babies be able to go home, and yet feel mad cuz im still here waiting. I by no means wish their families ill will, its heart warming to kno that they are well enough to go home.
4:37pm- Think im starting to get dilirious from sleep deprivation. Mark got me a coffee but it only lasted like 30-45min in my system. My eyes are so heavy, they burn, they are dry,, and all the walking today has me physically exhausted. Mark disapeared, dont know where he ran off too. Funny soon as hes gone, i got mistaken for being part of a latino family LOL I swear i need to find out my true heritage!!lol
5:30pm- Just found out more sad news. 2 Children ages 7and 11yrs are up here in the ICU and PICU from a car accident. Their 9yr old sibling died in the car crash that they were all apart of :( What a sad day, to much sorrow here at the hospital. And i just watched a couple follow what looked like a crash cart with their young one on it. My prayers are deffinatly with all the families that are in here today. I feel like i should go up to them and just give them a big hug. (then again they probly look at me like i was crazy lol)
6:00pm- Raiden has been brought bact to the PICU!!!!! Thank you JAH!!! He looks awesome too for the spilt second that i saw him! Looking forward to talking with dr si and barb!! LOVE MY SON AND HIS DRS!!! When barb saw us she was so happy with how he did! So just waiting to find out how exactly everything went.
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