10 days have passed

I feel a little better, but my morning sickness is still strong. At least once a day i run to the bathroom. But it has gotten a tad better, tho my cold i caught made it raise its ugly head once again.

I had raidens dr app, and once again his heart cath was put off another month it looks like. Im glad that he is doing to well, we havent had to take him back to the hospital other than regular cardi visits. They are especially surprised and soo proud of him about that. But it helps that i only take him out the house when need be. Grocery shopping, taking him to his dr apps, and ebony to school. So it looks like may is when we schedule his cath. Cant believe on the 25th of this month he is going to be 6 months old!  He is growing sooo fast, it seemed like just yesterday that i had him and everything had changed. I look at him and ask why hes so cute and he just smiles at me. Tho on the inside i know he is laughing at me cuz he doesnt sleep at night like he knows he should LOL.

Yesterday i turned 10 weeks. And in this 10 weeks iv lost 14 lbs :( now normally i would be extactic about the loss but thats a lot of weight for bein prego. . . right?? Sure im over weight (thank god i hold it well) but the morning sickness really is making it hard to eat! I just ate a waffel (blue berry) and i feel iffy... sigh .. i just want to feel better i cant even unpack the house cuz of the light headedness, sleepyness (especially when im not sleeping during the night nor day). Its just a lot right now.

I hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel. OOOHh im going to try this test that is "saposed" to predict weather or not your having a girl or a boy...i will let you know how it goes :)    lol

April Fools!!

April Fools on me! Thought maybe i would feel better from my morning sickness, well as i call it all day sickness. But to no avail, i am still sick as a dog and have to pack. I keep gettin in trouble with mark about not doing anything, but its hard to get the motivation when all i want to do is throw up the water that i just drank, let alone food. It has been a good 2 weeks since i last had a "good" meal. In 3 weeks iv lost 10lbs. And whats horrible is that i can feel the weight loss. Thats how i knew something was wrong.
I spoke to the dr and he perscribed me zofran, but that really didnt help. Yes it took the edge off but no matter what i was still extreamly neasuous. I wouldnt complain so much if it was just me, but cuz i have the kids its hard to do everyday stuff.
What makes the sickness worth it is knowing the baby is ok. Seeing raiden smile and try and talk to me, watching ebony and kai play with their brother. But still the morning sickness needs to stop. It would be awesome if we had tons of people we knew to help us move, but so far its just my friend, my sis, and my bro in law helping...and of the 3 only the bro in law is helping move stuff. My friend and sis are helping in a much bigger way...they are watching the kids for us!
Sigh, all i need right now is to be told that im in fact having twins...even tho i saw the ultra-sound and there is only one baby!! lol

Finally I have a Due Date!

Today I had my first appointment with a new dr. And it went great!! He said that im 8w 2d's. Now because this is baby number 4 there is the great possibility that the baby can be born 3 weeks early. So its a waiting game and i will have lots of dr's appointments to make sure all goes as well as it possibly can. So glad that i changed dr's cuz not knowing was killing me!!

3/13/2011

I had my dr's appointment and all he did was a physical. Friday they said i might be 11 weeks, and then that following monday he said maybey 4 weeks. Thats a big gap. I asked him what i meant for me to be high risk, and he said that he would just watch me more closely. Yet he didnt order a Ultra Sound for me to find out exactly how far along i am. I called to try and get answers and they said they will wait till im 15 weeks to schdule a US...but if i am 11 weeks then that will make me within my 20 weeks, how is that watching me closely?? And seeing how i had a misscairage right before conceiving raiden i would think that they would check to make sure that there really is a baby in there.
I cant stand not knowing. In better knews we got approved for rays SSI, thats going to help a lot. And we got a call from some really nice apartments and hopefully will be moving into a 4bdroom 2bth apartment withn 3 weeks. Im praying that we get to!!
Ebony would get her own room, and even kai for a little while anyways! Looking forward to starting over .. again lol. We find out for sure on everything tomorrow! Cant wait!!

Here we Go again!

On thursday i thought somehting was wrong (with me). I couldnt remember when my last MS was and was racking my brain for when it was. I could only think of when i had my 6 week check. Took two pregnancy test ad they both tested positive, well seeing how im "high risk" i called my dr right away. Friday i was at the dr office taking the test there. Since we couldnt figure out when my last MS was they went of my 6 week check. Which puts me at 10 weeks, well 11 weeks today i guess. I go in tomorrow (monday) to have a physical and talk about what is going to be done since i am high risk. I feel bad for my dr, he had no idea that anything was wrong with raiden. So he will probly take every precation. I aslo have to tell Raidens dr's so that they can get me some special ultrasounds to make sure that this baby's heart is ok. I am praying that everything is ok with him/her. Sigh so here I am with a 6 year old, a 5 year old, a 4month old, and 11 weeks pregnant. Think when i deliver i will ask them to just take EVERYTHING out!! LOL

What's to come??

So much is going to happen this next year its rediculous! All i have to say is how much i love my family and whatever happens i know that we will be ok. Seems things go bad, then get worse...and when it looks like all is lost, something extreamly happy and wonderful happens to us. Looking forward to raidens appointment next week. Sooo nervous and thrilled that we are at the point of moving on with his second surgery. So glad he is doing so well! So glad that he hasnt gotten sick, hasnt had any hicups! My lil heart baby is sooo strong!!!

March 1st! Kai's 5 today!

What a day what a day! Raiden is almost 13 pounds, kai turned 5 and isnt my baby anymore. THings are going so well!! What could ruin this day?? I know! My ex sister-in-law coming over to see the kids. And believe me it wasnt for her, she came over to get pics of the kids since their "sperm donor" cant do it himself. Now i know that i am sounding mean....but with good reason. He hasnt called on his own accord since the begining of December (when it was ebonys birthday) and even then he was only on the phone with them for max 7 minutes. He had allllll day to call kai, and he waited till 8:10pm last night to call...surprisingly i let the kids stay up late and to be a bigger person i let him talk to them.
Dont see how bad people get to exist!

There im done venting about him, own to better news. As of today 3/2/11 Raiden LaRoy is 13lbs 1oz!! My word iv got a fatty!! His ox levels were 78% I couldnt ask for a better morning!! This weather stinks for taking 3 kids out to the store in but im happy its not 100 degrees either! I found a apartment thats not to far from here that would give us 2 hundred more square feet a area for a washer and dryer and only cost a hundred dollars more than what we are paying now. I hope that something comes available this summer. Im totally looking forward to rays next appointment, its making me so nervous. Knowing that in just a month to month and a half he will be having his next surgery...goodness its making me so paranoid! lol