Finally I have a Due Date!

Today I had my first appointment with a new dr. And it went great!! He said that im 8w 2d's. Now because this is baby number 4 there is the great possibility that the baby can be born 3 weeks early. So its a waiting game and i will have lots of dr's appointments to make sure all goes as well as it possibly can. So glad that i changed dr's cuz not knowing was killing me!!

3/13/2011

I had my dr's appointment and all he did was a physical. Friday they said i might be 11 weeks, and then that following monday he said maybey 4 weeks. Thats a big gap. I asked him what i meant for me to be high risk, and he said that he would just watch me more closely. Yet he didnt order a Ultra Sound for me to find out exactly how far along i am. I called to try and get answers and they said they will wait till im 15 weeks to schdule a US...but if i am 11 weeks then that will make me within my 20 weeks, how is that watching me closely?? And seeing how i had a misscairage right before conceiving raiden i would think that they would check to make sure that there really is a baby in there.
I cant stand not knowing. In better knews we got approved for rays SSI, thats going to help a lot. And we got a call from some really nice apartments and hopefully will be moving into a 4bdroom 2bth apartment withn 3 weeks. Im praying that we get to!!
Ebony would get her own room, and even kai for a little while anyways! Looking forward to starting over .. again lol. We find out for sure on everything tomorrow! Cant wait!!

Here we Go again!

On thursday i thought somehting was wrong (with me). I couldnt remember when my last MS was and was racking my brain for when it was. I could only think of when i had my 6 week check. Took two pregnancy test ad they both tested positive, well seeing how im "high risk" i called my dr right away. Friday i was at the dr office taking the test there. Since we couldnt figure out when my last MS was they went of my 6 week check. Which puts me at 10 weeks, well 11 weeks today i guess. I go in tomorrow (monday) to have a physical and talk about what is going to be done since i am high risk. I feel bad for my dr, he had no idea that anything was wrong with raiden. So he will probly take every precation. I aslo have to tell Raidens dr's so that they can get me some special ultrasounds to make sure that this baby's heart is ok. I am praying that everything is ok with him/her. Sigh so here I am with a 6 year old, a 5 year old, a 4month old, and 11 weeks pregnant. Think when i deliver i will ask them to just take EVERYTHING out!! LOL

What's to come??

So much is going to happen this next year its rediculous! All i have to say is how much i love my family and whatever happens i know that we will be ok. Seems things go bad, then get worse...and when it looks like all is lost, something extreamly happy and wonderful happens to us. Looking forward to raidens appointment next week. Sooo nervous and thrilled that we are at the point of moving on with his second surgery. So glad he is doing so well! So glad that he hasnt gotten sick, hasnt had any hicups! My lil heart baby is sooo strong!!!

March 1st! Kai's 5 today!

What a day what a day! Raiden is almost 13 pounds, kai turned 5 and isnt my baby anymore. THings are going so well!! What could ruin this day?? I know! My ex sister-in-law coming over to see the kids. And believe me it wasnt for her, she came over to get pics of the kids since their "sperm donor" cant do it himself. Now i know that i am sounding mean....but with good reason. He hasnt called on his own accord since the begining of December (when it was ebonys birthday) and even then he was only on the phone with them for max 7 minutes. He had allllll day to call kai, and he waited till 8:10pm last night to call...surprisingly i let the kids stay up late and to be a bigger person i let him talk to them.
Dont see how bad people get to exist!

There im done venting about him, own to better news. As of today 3/2/11 Raiden LaRoy is 13lbs 1oz!! My word iv got a fatty!! His ox levels were 78% I couldnt ask for a better morning!! This weather stinks for taking 3 kids out to the store in but im happy its not 100 degrees either! I found a apartment thats not to far from here that would give us 2 hundred more square feet a area for a washer and dryer and only cost a hundred dollars more than what we are paying now. I hope that something comes available this summer. Im totally looking forward to rays next appointment, its making me so nervous. Knowing that in just a month to month and a half he will be having his next surgery...goodness its making me so paranoid! lol